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| Its been quite some time since I last blog even thou I intended to write a lot stuff down up here. Quite a number of stories are on my mind but I just don't feel that I should write it just yet. Well lets get back to todays topic.
I've been asking myself a lot about what is life all about and why would I wanna have my life for? Why would I even wanna live? Of course the centre of the life is focused around Jesus all alone but there are other things that follow. Life is like a jug if you see it this way. The jug first is filled with a big rock. There is still more space to fit in with smaller rocks after the big rock. So smaller rocks are filled in. Then pebbles are filled in to fill in the little space left by the rocks. However there are still more space there which is not likely to be seen. If sand is placed in, there is still room for it. Therefor for the jug to be fully filled, sand will be poured in. Lets see it this way, the big rock as God, the small rocks as important things that matters, family, friends and others. The smaller pebbles as things that is necessarily to fulfill life of such like education, career, work and things like that. Sand on the other hands are things that fills up life to make it the fullest which is events that happens through out your day. Without the sand, the jug cannot be truly full either. God is the foundation of the entire jug that it holds everything in its place. Where family is like the small rocks that fills up much of our life and how important it is to us.
What I really wanna stretch on is actually the pebbles and the sand. There are much things that we like and dislike in life. For instance, education. It is very obvious that it is a pebble that we need it to accomplish the jug. But many of us may dislike it even thou there are those who loves it. Sand on a further hand which is even more complicated, sand is an object which is so fine that collides with the rocks and also the pebbles therefore its events. It involves around the family, the friends and also the subject that matters around us. Many times the sand is wonderful but at times it just sucks.
Well why I'm naming it hate and love it so what? is because there are things in life, no matter we hate it nor love it, we still have to face it. Some of the small rocks in the jug may not be very fine but sand will morph it as time goes by and shape it to a smoother rock while some may get uglier. What I'm trying to say is, life changes as time pass by but the solid big rock stays there as the foundation to keep the jug in its place.
What happened was recently I found some stuff that perhaps I should never found out. Well I was curious to know how it happened but after I found out, perhaps it increased way my prejudice towards the person. I don't really know how should I deal with the matter, but its not like I'm offended or something like tat. There isn't a need to forgive actually, no harbor of anger. Its perhaps I don't like it that the person makes with some certain people. Well conclusion, hate it or love it? so what? Doesn't change anything. So don't waste time hating something, it is just a waste of time. Love it erm.. I'll stretch it some other time but I'll say this now, there are certain things that I love. But so what? It doesn't resolve around me alone. =) That's life.
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| I guess the answer that had been troubling me for quite sometime can be unlocked. No longer need to be uncertain over the dreams that I have been constantly getting. Its enough with the past and its time to build the new road. Well thats the best of being neutral aint it? =) A new path to build and all for Jesus.
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| Cast your bread upon the waters,
For you will find it after many days.
Does this verse sound familiar to you? Well this is what the Lord had really shown me. Today itself, blessings began to pour and pour. First Dad called and gave me extra cash, then mum called and gave me a raise in allowance. Lemme explain cast your bread upon the waters and you will find it after many days. Last week I gave tithes and this month I just tried giving double my normal portion. Wanna try to total depend on God on my finances and just let Him lead the way to live. And true indeed enough, all my flow of cash that enters increased. Been praying lots for my family financial and now my mums business is really good. Wont know how long it will last, but man.. all I need to do is, trust Him and be obedient to Him. Not only that, I actually forgotten to lock my dash box in polo ground with almost 1k in my dash box. And no one stole it after an hour. God protects. But that doesn't giv me the reason to be blur. =) and once again I think I should apologize for my misbehavior and immaturity yesterday.
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| Today was one funny day that I was actually offended over a blog issue of a friend of mine. The words he used to describe certain stuff really pissed me off at it was kinda talking about me. Whats more when what he says much contradicts to the reality in fact. But well, doesnt matter now. Its not why I wanted to blog. I was offended and I knew I was wrong to interrupt his personal domain with my words. Its his blog after all. Why should I care? If I care isn't it the same with ISA and Raja Petra? Well thats the case. What made me to blog was to choose some people to tell how I really felt. I'm human too and I was really angry maybe because of the increasing incidents that very much involved him as well that made me so provoked by that 1 single blog. I told a few people about it especially those who are closer to me. However one of them really struck words that breaks my heart to pieces. At the first place, better else I just don tell you. I suppose I wasnt looking for an answer was it right or wrong, rather looking for someone to help me chill down. In the my angry mood, turned too depressed state. Perhaps you would count tat as emo. For a very long time, I avoided communication with people even those who are very close to me. But of course there were some who were innocent such as those on sms who doesnt know whats happening. Well perhaps the person was just telling truths and truths hurts. In the end, I resolve to go play a game with Archie and chill myself down. And it helped. Helps me forget everything but now again when its over. The incident remains on my mind. 1 thing to learn, there isn't anyone who really understands me. Especially when I'm in anger and depression. So unpredictable. Perhaps because it seldom happen. There is one thing that I have been finding it weird. Whenever I'm really really sad, my entire left hand aches tremendously. Likes its turning sour and aches. I wonder whats wrong but this feeling have left long time, but today I felt it once again. Perhaps because your words really make impact to me? After all, I called u as part of my inner circle. Whats really happening? I wonder. After all, Gods word is always true. Do not put your trust in man for all you will see is dissapointment. And what it means is over trust over every incident. Its actually something really petty. But this blog is to remind myself. Shas, trust God, don depend on man. I may seem very strong much of the time, but the amount of tears I shed, perhaps none will know. Always longed for someone to cry on and rely on, but that someone will never appear. Only God can take on the role as the perfect comforter that helps me get it straight when I begin to waver. So now, all things good. Its your blog, do what you want. =) I shall have no comment. In the first place, I actually don even have to read it . =) Good good... Dont make yourself stumble. =)
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| Highland and Dota Crash - Date : 26-28 Oct
- Price : RM200 include transport
- Venue: KL & Genting
- Availability: Full
-Activities : - Dota, Genting, Chill
CANCELLED
Hiking Waterfall - : - Date: Unknown (In planning) 2D1N or 3D2N
- Price : RM100( a lot equipment to bring thou) include transport
-Venue: Berkelah Falls - Kuantan
-Availability: 9
-Activities: - Hiking, Swimming, Adventure, Campfire
Paintball Challenge- Date: Unknown (In planning) 1D
- Price: RM130 not inclusive transport
- Venue: MyGopengResort - Gopeng
-Availability: 11
- Activities: Paintball, Body rafting, Barbeque
Anyone interested? Hiking waterfall pls be someone fit enough if u wanna go. Paintball is open to erm.. ask me if u are really interested. will let u know are u part of the ones to go.
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